It's just happened
You may feel overwhelmed or be flooded with thoughts that are confusing as you try to understand how this could have happened.
Initially, many people experience shock and disbelief; intense distress; a need to understand why and how; or perhaps anger, guilt or shame.
The sudden nature of a suicide death may also mean you are experiencing the effects of trauma. Grief and trauma can affect how we think, behave and how we feel in our bodies.
You may find that you are filled with a barrage of questions: Why and how could this have happened? How could someone I love take their own life?
You may find yourself going over and over events and conversations as you try and find answers to these questions.
Searching for answers can be relentless and exhausting. It may help to understand that the reasons behind a person’s suicide are usually complex and may never be completely understood.